wow. there is nothing like sitting down with the guitar and worshipping at the top of your lungs. i feel relaxed, energized, at peace, complete. yes, i worship. who? my god. who is my god? i don't believe many people have met my god. my god does not judge. my god does not expect perfection. my god is all around me and within me. i suppose most people would never have guessed that i am into that sort of thing. but i am. just not in the way others perceive it. i don't believe that to love god one must conform to the image the church wants you to buy into. church is church and church is religion. i don't buy into church and i don't buy into religion. i possess a spirituality that my god enjoys. my god does not require a quiet time because i speak with her/him all the time, whether i am aware of it or not. now, i do believe that some people need the church to keep them sane, but i am one who questions things; therefore, the church is definitely not for me--at least, not the church i attended as a child. they don't like questions there. but my god loves controversy. that is why she/he gave us each a free will. i am the epitome of contradictions at times, especially when it comes to people's pre-conceived notions of what a believer should look like. i do not carry around my bible everywhere i go. i do not throw out scripture at the drop of a hat. i do not attend sunday services every week. i do not wear wwjd paraphernalia, which i'm sure my god finds rather amusing. i do not have an ichthus on my car. but i do love to sing and worship in my own way. just me, my guitar, and a spirit. warms up the soul.
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